I knew there were some changes ahead this year. Big changes. I had hoped they would be positive. They were not. This was not the change I wanted. And it’s one I find extremely difficult to deal with.

You were my “working week and my Sunday rest, my noon, my midnight, my talk, my song…”

I miss you.

Well, I’m gonna get out of bed every morning … breathe in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won’t have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out … and, then after a while, I won’t have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while.

After not even a month my blog has a new layout. I liked the other one, especially the colors, but I wanted something that reflected a … “September-feeling”. I chose a picture from “The Virgin Suicides” and lyrics from “Playground Love” by Air. For some reason, I think especially the song suits the season.

I also looked into possibilities for the new Livejournal layout. I want it dark and sleek. And that is way more difficult than something bright. The main concern I have that it might end up looking like my last autumn layout… I liked it, so I guess it’s not so bad.

And I have to update all of my fanlistings today. For someone who is a TFL trouble checker in three categories, I seem to be quite awful at keeping my fanlistings updated. Not that they get put on troubles a lot, but updating fanlistings that haven’t had any new members for months, or years, is always a little…well, sad. Anyway, off to work.